great. i failed econs. wat a nice start. im not depressed because of me failing econs, but the greater issue of me doing badly for the other subjects. if i cant do well for econs, wat abt maths? i dun think i can do tt well for sciences either. it's very very demoralising, unless there's a miracle, i seriously think i cant cope.

fuck.

i read some maths notes just now, and realised i've missed out on so much. if only i did not slp during lectures in 1st 3mths. im so fucking screwed. argh, i realised many of my classmates are much smarter and hardworking than me. wth can i do? im not smart, and neither am i as hardworking. it just frustrates me everytime. i think im just not cut out for studying, i shd just go out to work as a road sweeper or watever low class jobs there are.. sigh..

wat's with my stomach? freaking stomachaces throughout the day. it just comes and go.. i think it's cos of gastric. argh, if this doesnt go away, it's really going to affect my mood. go away pls? i beg u, stomach, be a good boy..

nth much today. 2 tests coming up, i know i wont do well for both of them, but urghh.. least, pass my econs test. maths, i dunno. just hope i dun get the lowest in class.

i dunno, i think of it sometimes. and i've learnt my lesson, i dun wanna be involved in another relationship. it's just too much for me to handle. and the aftereffects. i dint thought of tt the last time, but yea, if u do not commit to a relationship, and it just ends so abruptly, the other party feels so upset. it's just so unlike me to make other people feel sad.. sigh..

nth much to blog about today. today's just like a normal monday, except the fact tt i was a little happier than normal! haha. dunno y. so jing tat got harassed by me more often because of tt =) and we had to write a gp essay today, great.. i hate writing essays, and our gp tchr just have to do give us the task i most dreaded most. argh..

okay so it's a boring day. haha

argh, my neck is aching.. poor neck.. anyway, today, had a mugging session at kap, with jing tat, ziyan, jia ling, si hui and yawen. well, i shd say tt today was super unproductive, half the time i was stoning, just staring into blank space. i seriously dunno wat's with me. i want to study, but half of me says i shd slack, while the other half rebutted and said i shd work hard, "your future is in ur hands u know? screw it up and u are utterly screwed"

nono, i dun want my future to be screwed.

okay, so after the so-called mugging session, me, jia ling, si hui and yawen went beauty world for a pool session. ah, this is definitely stress relieving. i had a gd game of pool. i dun wanna say the score, cos i know how it feels to lose.. right jialing? haha..

so came home, watched tv somemore.. damn, my life's darn screwed. shit. i need to go back to my room to reflect.....

oh finally.. it's friday, i really need this break. wat a tiring wk. argh, actually all sch days are tiring, today's no exception. but hmm, i dunno wat's with me today. i just dun feel like talking to anyone, tt explains me looking abit moody today. sch's boring as usual, nothing much to talk about. the extended pw, and econs made me darn tired.. after sch, a few of us went kap for lunch. well, nth much to talk about too. sigh, my life's getting very boring.. or maybe, it's just tt im fated to lead a boring life.

everything's settled. hopefully, i'll go back to my own self soon. perhaps, the emotional scars i left on u is too much for u to handle. but im sorry.

argh, today's a darn boring day.. sat in the LT for a freaking long time. and after the council speeches ended, there's still chem prac.. if all days are like tt, i can diee. fortunately, lessons back to normal tmr!

so today, nth much happened. i wanna play tennis..... sigh

today's such a tiring and slpy day. i woke up feeling alright, but as i got onto the bus, i felt really slpy, so slpt throughout the entire ride. perhaps, tt's the reason why i felt abit depressed.

well, basically, the day past quite slowly. boring lectures, boring tutorials, boring physics prac. urghh.. it realy doesnt help at all when i felt so slpy listening to teachers talking and talking away. today just isnt my day.

but after sch, things started to turn for the better. so me, si hui, jia ling and xin lin headed for the gymnasium!. we played table tennis! it's supposed to be my best sport i can play, but after not playing for an extended period of time, my table tennis skills has seriously deteoriated. sigh.. after i got bored of playing, we changed to badminton. im quite sucky at badminton too, especially backhand. it's really really frustrating when u know it's such an easy shot, and u miss it entirely.. argh.. but i think, i did improve quite alot today. =) ahh, such an achivement..

after playing badminton, xin lin and si hui had to leave, so tt leave me and jialing. we decided to play pool in the sl. i think i would feel the fun of playing pool if not for some one who constantly stood by the table, and making unnecessary comments. i'll really appreciate if he can find something else better to do. anyway, this time i lost by a big margin to jia ling. i lost my concentration half way through the game.. sigh

like i say, it's just not my day today..

yes! it's sunday! sometimes i do like sundays, while sometimes i hate sundays. but today, im neutral. haha. so yes, i started the day with a nice mugging session at kap with my classmates! wooo. i've nv mugged this long for such a long time already! i was half an hour late, and by the time i reached there, anitha, si hui, xin lin, ya wen were already mugging away. leaving me distraught by their sheer determination in mugging.. urgh.. im not used to this sort of lifestyle. ah, and not to forget, jia ling was more den an hour late! haha.

so it was mug, mugging, and more muggings. we're a bunch of muggers mugging away in kap. of cos, in kap, there's always the temptations of buying fast food. i was one of the first few who got tempted by the prospect of muching away on fries, and slurping coke from the plastic cup. i practically ran down the steps to the counter, ordered my food and went back to enjoy my meal. started on my work again after eating. argh.. i really dun like doing maths, i got a little headache, and lost all my motivations to continue mugging. but i guess, tt's the consequence of doing maths after having a macdonald's meal.

during the period of mugging, we crapped, chat, gossiped etc.. and becos of tt, we got told by a mr low lookalike to keep quiet. all the stuffs abt blackness made me laugh like crazy. wat black bean stalks, black beans, black magic.. omg.. hahahhaha, it's darn darn hilarious!!!! argh..

im quite proud of myself actually, supposedly studying a straight 5h at kap. i've nv done tt before. i wont say it's really productive, but at least i was a good boy for 5h, not tempted to use the com or watsoever. so after the mugging session, me jia ling, si hui and anitha headed for beauty world for a game of pool! however, anitha backed out at the last min. but i understand her pedicament. after she left, tt leaves me, jia ling and si hui left. oh man, i certainly enjoyed playing pool again. but sadly, and expectedly, i only won 2 games.. oh ya! does 3-2-1 mean anything to u? ah ha! 3 means 3 games won by si hui, 2 games for me. and poor jia ling, only won 1 game. dun worry jia ling! practice makes perfect! maybe it just isnt ur day, or maybe the ball aint too round today. haha. okay. so we all left after tt.

ahhh, wat a well spent day. although originally, the plan was to play tennis too. but nvm. we can still play next wk! sunday is supposed to be spent like this. or perhaps a nice day spent at sentosa? enjoy the sea breezes, kick sand and stuff. ahh, paradise.. noooooo, stop the crap justin!

haha, okie.. i'll spend my time more wisely from now on =)

i shall start with yesterday! yesterday's a nice day, cos sch ends at 1230! the earliest of the wk. oh yes, i simply love days when sch ends so early. and when it coincides with the last wkday, it makes everything seem so perfect. so to complement the perfect day, we had a class outing! i wont say it's really a class outing la, but hey, 6 ppl from the same class went for the outing! impressive =) okay, so me, jia ling, xiu yi, jing tat, ziyan, yee shiang headed for beauty world to play pool. i love playing pool, but im not gd at it.

so splited up into 3 tables. and of cos, as expected, i lost almost all the games. only won 4 or 5 games. argh.. pathetic. played for about 2 hrs, stopped when ziyan said he had to go. which was bullshit, cos we ended up eating in mac, lagging there for an impressive 3 hrs! =) and ziyan was there lagging too.. we crapped and crapped, non stop crapping. and i had lots of fun snapping pictures with my phone.. not to forget the very interesting mac advertisement. the melodious song accompanied with a person pushing a hot cake on a swing. i was amused by it all the time, together with my fellow classmates! i suggest next time we go buy some hot cakes in the morning, go to the park, and push it on the swing too! oh ya, we have to run towards the swing, then push it. woah, an absolute dramatic commercial we'll make! hahahahha.. oh no, i shd stop my crap. ziyan sat like a stone, observing our actions. jing tat was crapping, laming as usual, me joining in to crap, and learning to become a professional photographer. jia ling and xiu yi joining in the fun! this is wat i call a great class outing! fun, laughter, bondings, talkings, crappings, lamings, jumping, buying apple pies, taking photographs at ppl who do not like being photographed. ah ha! fantastic!

okay, i really shd stop commenting. it's getting quite out of hand.

so yup, today had a sa class outing too. but im darn disappointed with the number of ppl who turned up. i was half an hour late, thinking tt i'll rcv an overwhelming welcome from my exclassmates. but alas! i was only greeted by a sad looking tze kwang. sigh.. but at least i get to play a one on one with tze kwang in pool. sarah arrived shortly, but poor sarah. i really think she shd join in the pool fun, and play with us too.. after a while, soonhui, jasmine and ching how came. everyone played except sarah. i was constantly on a lookout for weilun, only to be told by sarah tt he's mugging at home.. arghhhhh.. muggers...

i dun wanna elaborate more abt today. well, i had fun playing pool. but there are stuffs tt i prefer not to say.

i wish it did not start in the first place, it was my mistake.

im drained of all my energy. my arm muscle aches even when im just carrying a light object. but ya, it's gd training. napfa pushes me to my max. anyway, if u just realised, i had napfa 6 items today. not 5 but 6. 2.4 run is enough to make my legs jelly, the other 5 items simply makes things much worse. sigh.. if only i could jump another 5cm more for standing broad jump...

today was quite a gd day besides the fact tt there's napfa. i dint feel slpy today, maybe it's cos i talked more today. how i wish im like tt everyday, energetic, passionate.. urgh.. watever.. and i dun understand a shit of physics. im just so amazed tt as u drop an apple, the earth will move towards the apple too. wow! im fascinated.

had a nice og dinner today. was supposed to eat at home, but as a nice og fren, i tagged along. everyone's asking to go jp, but jp's really far from my home.. so we make do with a hawker ctr at bt timah. forgot wat was the name of it, but the food is nice! had stingray, and a nice cup of sugar cane to quench my thirst! ahh.. i dint eat much though.

im starting to love sch more den few wks before. this is a gd sign aint it? haha =) yay, hopefully can go play pool with the class tmr! well, so now.. exhaustion is taking its toll on me. ahh.. my bed... *dives onto bed* =)

yesSSS!! today's the last day of makeup lectures! no more late lectures, no more sleeping in makeup lectures, no more grumblings about makeup lectures that the 1st intakes do not enjoy =) but i do feel gd. last chem makeup was on mass spec, well, i sorta understand it now. ha.

anyway, saw many peeps coming to nj today for the taiwan immersion thingy. only a supernatural force can make me go for tt. my chinese sux big time, okay.. not really. i just cant speak chinese well. damn. wat a nice irony.. and ya, i did spotted some frens. xian cong, arthur.. and arthur is still wearing the chinese high sch u! haha. guess wat? he's waiting for his uniform to be altered. it's too big for him. ahh.. poor arthur. i saw yueting too! actually it was liwen who told me tt yueting came nj. and so a small grp of us started chatting. ahh, how i miss chinese high.. from nj, the chinese high clocktower is so conspicous. and to think tt, one year ago, i was still studying in the tower block. the nice spacious classroom, the cool aircon, the playing of chapteh at the back of the classroom.. man, it's nostalgic. brings back much fond memories =)

but nope, i shdnt dwell over it. since i cant make it to hc, i shd be contented with njc.

today's quite a slack day, besides the fact tt we had to do a redox titration againnnnn.. damn. at least this time, we do not need to prepare the standard solution. i seriously think it's a waste of time. argh.. how i hate chem pracs. hmm.. actually, i hate all practical sessions. they're boring, and we have to answer so many redundant questions after doing. we had a nice break, free periods. played cards as usual. playing cards is one of my fav pastime, and nth can beat playing cards when one's bored. ah ha. and when we were having so much fun playing, a stupid fat ass councillor must appear from no where to stop us from playing further. he shd go on a diet first before killing my fav pastime. damn.. and becos, today's international friendship day, we had to go see some play at the LT during civics lesson. well, i shant comment on the play. it's quite stupid. but hmm, the presentation on maldives was quite interesting.

arghhhhhhhhh.......... IT'S A BORING ENTRY!!!!!


damn. someone! add colours to my life please? i dun wanna be a mugger yet. not yet. but i still feel kinda slack even though tutorials are piling up slowly. im sure one day, the no. of tutorials to be done will be taller den me.

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i wanna go for a class outing.

sometimes it's hard to spend the wkends well. looking back the last few wkends, what have i done? nth much, i spent the last few wkends stoning at home in front of the com, in front of the tv. yes, wkends is the time for us to unwind from the hectic sch days, gain precious slp, relax and enjoy the sunshine. how i wish i can do all tt. my wkends sux big time. there are times when i feel tt fridays are better den saturdays and sundays. becos fridays give me the feeling tt sch days are ending, and the start of the wkends begins. such cool irony. ahhh..

haha. okay, i shant crap any more.

on friday, i borrowed mavis's book. the da vinci code to read! omg, it's darn interesting. and i broke my own personal record to finish reading a book in two days. okay, to some of u it's kinda slow, but at least, i broke my own reading record =) dan brown is one cool author. ha! now i really understand why my wkends are so boring, it's boring cos i have nth to read. a gd book is definitely a time killer. not only does it entertain u, it enriches ur mind, kills time, and gives u the impression tt time is well spent. ahh, books do wonders..

on saturday, which was yesterday, i spent my days with my og mates too! it was supposed to be an og outing, but guessed wat?? only 4 of us turned up. but 4 is better den nth right? so there we have, amy, mavis, daniel, and me! we agreed to meet up at bugis mrt station. and wow, i was the latest to arrive. it's been a long time since i have turned up the latest! we headed for mac for lunch after pondering over several possible places to eat. everyone was starving, i could hear my own stomach growling for food. the smell from the food stalls at the basement was intoxicating! but heck, we still went mac to eat. after eating, we shopped around. and came the impromtu decision to go sentosa - singapore's island resort. yay. it's kinda nice going back to sentosa again, reminds me dearly of my sajc days. ahh.. my 1st 3 mths were really fun. sajc really is the fun-nest jc in singapore! sigh.. i hope njc wont be tt boring. anyway, sentosa rocks! literally. if u have been to sentosa before, u would have realised there are rocks stacked neatly near siloso beach. and we slacked there. and as friendly students of singapore, we came across 2 young children aged 12. wow, im really amazed they started talking to us. asking me and daniel to jump around the rocks. fascinating! but of cos, i wouldnt budge, im lazy. and one of them, joey i think, called me a girl. i was stunned. wth. a small boy calling me a girl. damn. but nevertheless, i dint care less, he's a smallboy afterall. i forgave him on the account he's only a 12 year old boy =p but yes, i wont say the outing to sentosa was especially enjoyable or watsover, it made me realised tt there are some places where i can really relax my mind, chat with my dear frens, and enjoy the warm sea breezes. i will deem sentosa as my new sch hideaway from now on. haha! okay, watever. i have nth to say abt tt.

and sunday, which is today. i slacked. yes, i did the econs tutorial faithfully. but not the maths. dammit. i hate maths. if only maths werent invented. how i wish i could hire an assassin to murder the first mathematician. bloody mathematician, screw u.

i slacked and i slacked.... tv, computer.. ahhhhhhhh...

i hate mondays too, the sch day is so looonnnnggggggggg ... it last for an eternity. someone save me pls. save me from this hell.. arghhhhhh.. sigh.. but yup, im starting to like my class - s11. im sure slowly, we'll be bonded together.. =) we'll rock the whole of njc. hahah.. okay.. wish me fun and more fun next wk!!! =)

school has started. everything's going at full steam, lectures, tutorials, makeup lectures etc. so yup, got into S11. well, im only starting to know the class very very recently. i have thought tt there's sort of a segregation amongst the first and second intakers. but perhaps, i was only hallucinating. ha. it's getting better.

and there's supposed to be a class outing this friday. to go or not to go... sigh.. anyway, i still spent my past few days with og15 peeps. they're a nice bunch of ppl. fun, nice.

nth more to blog.. this sux