Chinese New Year is finally here! the annual festival i'm always looking forward to! it's not only the myriad of new year goodies i stand to chomp down my throat, it's also the angbaos i get to collect, last but not least, the GAMBLINGS. WOOHOO. hence, my immense likings for this particuluar short holiday season. :)


since it's the first day of the lunar new year, it's customary of us to visit my grandparents. first up, my grandma's place. today was unlike the past years, her home was rather empty, in fact, no other distant relatives visited today except my paternal side's. nevermind, it was good enough! there were some interesting things that happened over there. had a light lunch of rice with vegs and some roast duck- not bad. then came the setting up of mahjong table! oh, before that! it all happened when 2 of my aunts and my grandma were standing together chatting, then came me tottering in front of them. they complimented me! :) i'm sooooo happy. haha. it's like, they commented on me looking more handsome as i grow up! i was like over the moon. i have been hearing things like these quite recently! but today, yea, i really did spend quite some time waxing my hair nicely, choosing a nice set of clothings, accompanied with my nike shoes! not boasting or whatsoever, but i think it's been a long time since i looked good. the past few days in school have been disastrous; my hair was always out-of-placed, and i looked really really haggard. well, can't blame me, have been feeling very shag, to the extent of it affecting my mood. ah. alas! it's now CNY!


then came the topic of girlfriend. my aunts asked me if i have any gf, and obviously, i said no. and had to keep saying i really don't have any, then my grandma said, ting1 shuo1 ni3 yi3 qian2 you3 (heard u have, last time), i was taken aback. it's like, woah. :s whoever told her i used to have girlfriends?? well, but hmmm. i don't mind having another girlfriend now. finding a girlfriend who REALLY loves me, not just a fling. anyhow. i learnt that my eldest cousin intro-ed his ex-gf to the entire family in jc2! which is my age.. how i wished i have a girlfriend now... .ahhhh. nono. i should concentrate on my studies instead! ah ha! :)


oh, then back to the mahjong game! today luck not that good la. played with 2 of my aunts and my eldest cousin. in the end lost about 10+ bucks. however, my relatives were really very kind! they volunteered to help cover my loss. ahh. sooo nice!


then had a few family photos taken. today's a good day to take pictures! too bad i only took a few. whoops.


headed for my grandfather's house next. at there, nothing much happened la, was just sitting on the sofa stoning, and munching on food. yup. basically, that rounds up my day. reached home quite early, that explains me blogging now eH?


10 ANGBAOS TODAY! i want my iPod NANO...................... :(

{/6:25 PM}

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i can now type without any pain! although my middle finger remains slightly bluish, but at least i can bend it till it's about 90 degrees now! :) i'm happy! oh oh, im soooo broke! i have spent all my money on food this week! it's like so long since i spent all my money in a week. i didn't blog about this, but had a meal at NYDC on thursday with kaisiang and victor. wow. another gay outing -_- nevermind, it was still fun! lagged at starbucks too, long time since i had a drink at starbucks. long long time in fact.


tonight's reunion dinner. cant wait for the gooooooood food. abalone, here i coomme :)

{/11:15 AM}

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w00t! today was a friggin fun day. not only that, i have totally drained myself of all energy. first up, cny celebrations in school. i've heard many discussions about the wearing of secondary school uniforms many days before, i guess the class had decided to axe that idea considering the pathetic number of people who turned up in their uniforms. poor xinlin, got pangseh-ed =s hmmm, and i really dint want to go school at first, because i had no idea what to wear. as in, really nothing. i have not much to say about the celebrations though, NJ superstar was rather boring. the talents of the contestants were so-so only. so yea, we sorta just slacked our way through the entire celebrations..


then it was time for the mahjong session at xinlin's home with kaisiang too! we really had alot of difficulty trying to find the 4th person because xiuyi backed out the day before. but cant blame her really, she felt sick. pooor girl =s eventually, we still managed to get yanwen to join us. she was the only j1 among the 3 j2s, so i think she felt a little left out, but fortunately, kevin joined us! haha. it was fun la, mahjong is just naturally fun. with funky people around, the mood lightens.. wooo.. haha. oh, and we found out many reasons why some of us kept losing, like the pineapple lantern hanging on the ceiling, or eating pineapple tarts?!?! hahah. damn funny. the company was great, if only there was aircon.. well. i dont mind a few people coming my house this cny holiday! i think it'll be fun :) (though i dont have a mahjong set)


then after the mahjong session, rushed down to jing tat's house for the "bbq". met up with ys at the bus stop first before trekking 15 mins into the winding roads. tiring tiring. at his home, we played a few rounds of mahjong again, and then there's the game of blackjack! woah, damn funny. losers are supposed to drink glasses of water. poor junyan, i think he drank 6 or 7 cupfulls of water! imagine, your bladder bursting with urine.. ahhh.. just makes you want to press his lower abdomen, making him pee all over his pants. haha. jk. jun yan and karwai were playing a game of catching at the busstop. karwai's damnnn childish. even childish me can find karwai childish, goes to show how childish karwai was. tsk tsk. kw, time to go home and reflect eh?? hahah.jk. very entertaining to see you two running around like kids! =p


overall. it's a good day!


ks: i'm really running out of timeeeeee.. how how?? =s arghhh, i hope i dont sound desperate. hehe.
xinlin: thanks for hosting us todayy. woah, the pineapple tarts are nice! :)


LASTLY, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ALL! MAY WE BE RICH OVERNIGHT! :)

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today had one of the worst starts to the day. i wont be able to blog much because of the excruciating pain when i type the letters "D,E and X" arghh. i injured my left middle finger severely. it's like partially blue in colour now. it was like, bballing, and having fun. then suddenly, the ball came straight at me and i stupidly pointed my fingers straight at it. the collision sent shudders of pain through my fingers, i think it felt as bad as being hit on the crotch - just that in this case, the pain lasts. :( sighh. it's now so swollen and unsightly..

just now, i took about twice the time i need to bathe..


anyway, stayed back in school after lessons ended to help out at the interact noticeboard. i realised i have been quite active in interact recently! nevermind, i guess it's good that way too! (: and as usual, the same ppl appeared. kaisiang, sihui, jiaying, victor, jasline, kevin, and somemore new people, like yan wen, and erm.. cant rmb the rest :s but seriously, was extremely. arghhh. my finger!! damn.. nvm. was very very tired.. just want to apologise for my lack of enthusiasm just now.. :s but i finally got my energy back after some time.
soon, we decided to have dinner out again! after much discussion, we decided that adam food ctr fits the bill. ergo, off we go the ADC. and at ADC, we'll never escape from the fate of tasting the must-eat nasi lemak! of course, there are the crappings, the jokes and the casual chats.. raelly really felt like first 3 mths..


uh oh, i think i'm getting very slack recently. been losing the momentum already. sighh. i guess there's still time to change though :p but i like it this way! soo fun. and i think tmr shall be a day hanging out at town! woohoo.... :)

{/9:44 PM}

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the day didn't really start as well as i expected. physics SPA made me feel a little depressed, made some mistakes here and there. sigh. but nvm, it's OVER. took quite some time to get over it though. the lessons through the day dragggggged slowly, although it's supposed to be a short day. i guess it's partly due to the faCT that at that point of time, i had not thought of the activities i'm going to be engaged in after school. i had nearly succumbed to the fate of mugging after school, but surprisingly, the tide changed, or rather, turned!


hanged around the canteen after school. and out of no where, spotted some of my interact juniors sitting with sihui and yawen. so i joined them too. then chatted with them for a while. i didnt really contribute much to the chattings cos i was rather tired, so kinda just stoned there. in the end, decided to go mug with yawen at the oasis. THEN, my juniors, they had to come join us and made us stop mugging! hahah. but seriously, dint really had the mood to do so too. so we sorta just lagged around, played cards. some had to leave at some point of time, but most returned for the impromtu outing to kap later.


so, it was us guys, me, kaisiang, sihui, victor and kevin, overpowering the single representative, jasline. haha. fortunately for her, she had christine and shereen to accompany her later. honestly, it felt rather 1st 3mth-ish. guess what, im j2.. the crappings, the orientation games we play (oh, coincidentally, i had my first game of concentration at kap).. then there were the forfeits, using fries; where 2 ppl had to bite off a single fry together! haha. and there's the candid photograph takings! woohoo. quite fun actually.


went home eventually, and i realised that jasline takes almost the same bus as me! no wonder i saw her at the near-macritchie bus stop this morning =s


oh, and reached home at 9pm.


ahhhh, what a day. looking forward to the arrival of CNY!! :)

{/9:31 PM}

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woot. seriously, i don't regret signing up as an ogl for interact orientation, cos my group was so friggin funky! i really have to count myself lucky, the people in my group, woah, just makes my day man. oh, yawen and i were ogls for the same group, sihui joined in for about 3/4 of the entire orientation experience. the peeps in my group were mainly, Jasline, Victor, Shereen, Kevin and Faisal. victor looks like one of my cat high, SA classmate. while jasline resembles another! it was quite hilarious, but real tiring.


had some icebreakers before the commencement of the main game. basically, the main game was the food chain game. it requires the linkages of the last alphabert of the food, to the first of the next one; while at the same time completing tasks round the island. mainly, AMK, Bt Panjang and Queenstown. at queenstown library, kaisiaing joined us but left shortly with the exco. but he sorta rendezvous with us after the game ended! with him, things just gets more and more interesting. lol. oh oh, forgot the mystery stop at Changi airport. so i'm sure u all noticed that we did travel almost around the entire island. was sweating like some sweaty ass at the end. but, i think everything's worth it. cause, at the end of the day, i made a few new friends. and they are really a bunch of cool j1s. can crap alot, and rather enthu too.


although we didn't win the main game, i guess it's just the experience that counts. ate at burger king for dinner (Plaza sing). then headed for esplanade rooftop, it's like one of my favourite hangout of all time! the place is just so soothing, though the crowd started growing after a while. we really had a heart-to-heart talk about stuffs going around in school. and it's the same few people we talked about. while getting to know some juniors better..


i won't be shy saying that one of my group mate's quite pretty :s oops. she looks really sweet. hahah.


and another of my group mate, jasline, her bday's on the same month as me! it's quite cool.. hahah. and i realised she can really talk alot. comparable to some of the girls in class, but just not as loud. oops, again. haha.


ALL IN all, it's a good day. a day worth relishing, a day worth remembering, and a day worth blogging. if only my class has more ppl like them..


my body's feeling rather warm...


yawen: take care. don't fall sick!
kaisiang: hahha. good luck to you man. muahahaha.
sihui: u look really stressed, u really need to destress. try the song below! :p

something to add too, the song "noise and kisses" by THE USED rocks to the ultimate core. fucking stress reliever. highly recommended! :)

{/12:13 AM}

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i have never felt that good till today! haha. at least since the start of school? school was alright, managed to survive through all the boredom. i seriously think i've got it all under control! :) which, obviously, is wonderful news. although, short/temporary memory relapses strike my mind occasionally, i can whisk them away quite effortlessly. so, that makes me a free-man again, aint it? ha. GP lessons are also one of my favourite lessons, cause there'll always be moments where i'll get to laugh my ass off. damn funny la, my gp teacher.


actually, i think it's the company. if you have a good company of friends, they'll brighten up your day, and make life ever so entertaining. well, but friends do change gradually. some of my friends have changed, takes a while to get used to, but hey! that's the cue for me to make new friends! friends who are trustworthy, and worthy of my time. not friends who don't care a shit about what you say, give you half-hearted answers, ostracise you etc etc. some may be backstabbing me without me knowing, but really, backstab me for all you like, as long as i can take matters lightly, i think i've already done what i'm supposed to do - as a friend.


hmmm. went out with kaisiang today. he's an example of a new friend. haha. started conversing with him online recently after he added me for no particular reason. told him quite alot of stuffs, and he shared his own sentiments too. exchanged thoughts and etc.. erm, okay. back to the narrative stuffs. headed for town.. like finally? i used to think orchard was my second home. visited it many many times a week last year. but i think it's the first time i been there this year with a friend. so was naturally, kinda excited. ate at pastamania as i was on budget. actually, hahah. just didn't want to spend much on food la, though i believe i can easily afford a meal in a more high end restaurant. nevermind, can reserve that for tmr!


we sat there (pastamania, cineleisure), for approximately an hour. chatted once again about many stuffs. lots of random stuffs. talked about people, the way they treat others. i know i've been degrading a couple of people recently, but it feels good to do so. it's kinda like a one-off stress reliever. someone listens to you, and you pour all your feelings down, and he gives really good advices and suggestions. when u feel real satisfied after the entire session, you'll know that everything's just so worth it.


but then, couldnt stay there any longer as my bladder was bursting. rushed to the washroom soon after :s haha. we then decided that it's time to move on. so we left cine and just hanged around ngee ann city area. took a stroll round kino, browsing through some interesting books. went up to library@orchard to kill time too. it's then we decided to call it a day - home sweeeeet home..


oh and about the thing tmr. heard there is going to be a class outing. i knew the information only through some hearsay, no confirmations and whatsoever. so yea, i believe it's not really a class outing after all. anyhow. i wouldn't be able to make it tmr. hope the class have fun though. hahah. and hopefully, i'll have fun tmr too! :)

{/9:10 PM}

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i cant believe i got so bored that i stayed in school to mug! though it only lasted for about half an hour. before that had more company, but most had to leave due to committments. so i left school at about 530pm, ALONE. ha. actually, i think it's one of the rare moments where i leave school without any company. but then again, there's always a first time.


and tmr's friday! yay. hopefully i can find some people to go out with me tmr.. :)

{/7:22 PM}

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hehe. i'm feeling rather light-hearted now! been feeling quite moody in school, but at the end of they day, things started changing for the better! :)

{/8:20 PM}

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what a monday to start the week. today's certainly not a good day. first up was PE, 10 rounds around the track's definitely not a stroll in the park. but still, i managed to get through it with some difficulty. then came the chem test. chemistry's my worst subject, so there's really no surprise that i found today's test hard. if i do pass, i'll treat everyone to a meal! haha. jk.


lessons were boring as usual. but GP was surprising interesting. discussed essay topics in small groups, and that gradually woke me up from my dreamland. then after gp, thought of mugging, but didn't have the mood to mug at all, so ended up playing bball. the worst part arose from playing bball. damn, i sprained my right ankle. had to limp around the court like a friggin handicapped for the rest of the game. it's painful, but still bearable.. it's often because of such pain, that we learn to realise we cannot take everything for granted again.


pain, it sinks reality right into you.

{/6:46 PM}

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it's overtime where u come to realise what you want from your life. someone told me something really inspiring just now. well, maybe just inspiring to me. she said something like: since she can put everything behind, so can you. "so can you". it's not that i'm trying to be competitive here, but sometimes, it's things like that which motivates you to go the distance, instead of whining about your sorrows; at the exact same spot. and when u have made up your mind, don't turn your back. it's only then will u improve.


oh, check out hoops and yoyo. damn hilarious. just makes your day.

{/11:06 PM}

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yea. so as expected, i went mugging today. it's not that mugging is fun, or that mugging is my life. but things are different when u go out to mug with your friends. it's more lively, and more often than not, u tend to concentrate on your work. well, no prize for guessing who i went to mug with today. yup, heng da.


he suggested going to jurong library to mug. i have never been there before, so he agreed to meet me at marsiling mrt station before leaving for the library together. i can't believe myself going to a library so far away from home to mug! on the way there, we chatted. talked about quite alot of stuffs, his fun experiences as an ogl, and then i in turn, talked about how school was like for the past 2 weeks. inevitably, there are issues which will come into light. hmmm, back to mugging. mugged from 2 to 6, didn't really do much though. but did complete my integration 1 tutorial, and attempted a few econs mcq.


on the way home, heng da was saying something about really making an effort to study this year, and that i should do the same too. i totally agree. i've been neglecting my studies last year. i wouldn't say that i have been wasting my time by going out so frequently. it's the sweet memories which i can still reminisce. so for now, with one factor currently being offloaded, i guess i can finally set my mind at ease. and perhaps, to show the rest that i'm not last-position material.

{/7:45 PM}

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okay, i guess i had overreacted. just wanted to clear up some misunderstandings. perhaps, u have misunderstood me.

{/10:36 PM}

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well. go on. continue with your rattlings about ME being childish. how many fucking times have i heard u say i'm childish? a million? ohh, i didn't know the only word in your dictionary is childish. oh sorry, forgot another word. the fucking f word. ha. have u ever wondered how childish you are too? u fucking pissed me off today.


trying to gain sympathy. WTF. u think u're the princess of the class? think u're so popular? with your mannerisms, i don't even think u can find a guy who can tolerate you for more than a month. it's my fucking mistake in the first place. u broke my heart not once, not twice but fucking thrice. why was i so dumb in the first place? i can blog till the next morning naming all your bad qualities, but i wouldnt want to waste my precious time on that. you can say i'm naturally dumb, wait. do u think u're that smart in the first place? so what if u used to study in a top school? i used to study in a top school too. and look, i'm still in nj. i shant comment on your promo results, cos that's insensitive. and i still rmb u saying u blamed me for your results. pushing the blame onto others doesnt solve problem. it just makes u look stupid. like, "oh, i did badly for promos this time cos XXX keeps dating me out". FUCK. i wish i could blame someone for my results too, but i know it's because i didn't work hard enough. do whatever u like. say whatever u like, because, this time u have really gone too far. i have accepted practically all your flaws in the past, but this time. NO. u may have a face which everyone likes, but inside, u are a hypocrite. yes, i know. u have said many times yourself that u're a hypocrite. but have u realised how hypocritical are u? for example, a scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being the most hypocritical. i'll rate u perhaps, a 10.


wait, there's still more. just because u think u are popular u can talk at the top of your voices all the time? it's fucking irritating. oh yea, u always say that i'm irritating. ask yourself, are u more irritating than me? the other guys may accept you, because u attract the most attention in class. but hey, I FIND IT SO IRRITATING, i really wished i could change a class. hey, why don't u be a hypocrite in front of me? and curse me all u behind my back? i will really prefer that u know?


and u have chosen to use the lousiest method to dump a guy. by plain ignoring him? ha. if u really want to dump a guy, ditch him in the face. don't be a coward and hide yourself behind a screen.


well, i know. u'll probably hate me to the core after reading this. that's exactly my purpose. HATE ME. FUCKING HATE ME, SO I CAN HATE YOU TOO. with your intelligence, i believe u can counter every point i mentioned just now. c'mon. try me. let's see who's more childish.

{/7:33 PM}

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hmmm, i've come to realise something. NO ONE'S TAGGING!! :( i don't know if there are any people around who can be bothered to read my entries and stuffs at all, cos u all don't leave anything behind! haha. it's not like i really need them, but hey, it's a friendly gesture afterall right?


anyway, today has been a rather smooth-sailing day, though was feeling a little shag. couldn't get to sleep fast for the past night too, so yea, resulted in me slightly dozing off during lessons today. oh, and it's thursday! so that means there's only a friday left before the commencement of the weekends! hopefully, this weekend will be more fun-filled, and more productive than ever. i don't want to spend my weekend sinking into another state of depression. rather, i want to spend my weekend with friends. regardless of what we are doing, mugging, slacking. ehh hey! it's chilling out time afterall! :)


it's still raining, day in day out. so well, at night, naturally the stars go for their routine hide-out behind the clouds. wish the clouds can clear soon.. wanna see the few surviving stars shining out on the skies. ah.

{/10:21 PM}

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i dislike integration. darn confusing..

{/6:15 PM}

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so, i'm the only one online eh? just goes to show how early and how popular i am. things just dint seem to go the way it should be today. had so many many thoughts before i slept last night, which resulted in me rolling on the bed for a mere hour. no wonder i woke up in the morning feeling more tired than usual. life in school is actually challenging at times. yea, i know, school work and stuffs. but then, there's the other side of the challenge. that is, the inter-personal interactions among people. well, i've just realised that maybe.. i don't really find the idea of sitting beside a particular someone interesting. hate it actually. i would rather sit alone. also, i think i've irritated someone else today. bad bad start to a school day. the only fun i had today was crapping with ziyan.. haha. we're both from chinese high afterall, there's bound to be some chemistry between the two of us. haha. okay, jk. oh, something else. i think i pissed someone off today too, that resulted in some flamings on the class noticeboard.. and finally, it's still the mental struggle which i have to overcome. perhaps i thought, the attempt to try to find faults in a particular person to make me detest him/her, doesn't really work. because at the end of the day, it makes me guilty. the guilty conscience continues to linger throughout the day. even when i stepped onto the bus home today, i was still in a daze, and never did realise that i have been standing throughout the journey even though there were seats.


life never fails to create such wonders.

{/4:23 PM}

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i don't know why, but im feeling kinda upbeat now. it's an effable feeling. but hey! it feels good. :) i just need to keep going on like this and life will be a breeze.. haha.

{/10:48 PM}

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today's a public holiday! i'm definitely feeling better today. no more shitty mood swings :) maybe just a little this morning. but now, im just enjoying this beautiful wet day! listening to my songs, and perhaps, if i have the mood later, shall do some work. oh and something else, i decided to be like a primary sch kid again! learning one new word a day..


if only i have a chance to go out.. seriously need some chilling out..

{/4:39 PM}

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it is like a game of chess. the pieces are the different factors, and will determine how the game will progress. play it wrongly and u lose the game, play it well, well.. u'll just make the game last longer. however, u'll have to checkmate eventually, or be checkmate-d. then u move on. i wonder why people cry over a game of chess..

{/11:49 AM}

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i guess for now, i have only my blog to turn to. no one in my family understands,i think im losing my appetite too. and no, im not trying to gain sympathy. it's just the truth. the reason why i have time to do my tutorials is because i don't go out now. when was the last time i visited orchard with my friends? i seriously can't remember. it's sad.


read blogs of other ppl, they're either having fun in their orientations, or having fun going out with friends. i know i shouldn't complain about not being able to go out with friends. but fact is, everyone i asked rejected me. everyone's busy. though sometimes, there are exclusive cases where ppl ask me out, but i simple have no mood to go out. that's the irony of life.. nevertheless, i shan't continue wallowing in sorrow. makes people think i'm weak. i shall prove my critics wrong. ha. WAIT AND SEE.


i shall still blog though. de-stresses the inner soul.

{/10:46 PM}

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school was not bad today. i felt really wide awake, attentive during lectures and tutorials. as in, really. PE was extreme, i think i over exerted my body, cos my abs hurt like hell after the lesson. was practically clutching my stomach throughout physics tutorial. edwyn doesnt seem to understand, haha, i think i know why =p


however, when i reached home. things took a sharp turn. tried to distract myself by doing work. but after a while, mr good mood simply lost the battle to mr sad. hahah. i miss my dear blog. nearly couldn't blog just now.. =s (okay, irrelevant)


anyway, time will tell.

{/9:26 PM}

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feeling much better now. blogging does help, to a certain extent.
but still, it can't resolve my emotional solitude.

{/4:00 PM}

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no, i don't understand. one moment i thought i have it all sorted out, and before i know it, it stabs right onto my back again. i hardly have anyone to talk to. so the suffering lingers, lingers like a parasite, sucking the life out of me.


i peeked out of the window, well, it has been raining for the past few days. the weather's really cool. but it doesn't help at all. everytime i look out of the window, i'm reminded of someone.


someone told me that i'm naive. i do not know why, somehow, i think i have misunderstood certain facts in life. i took for granted that things will change, so i waited. but time and tide waits for no man. so here i am, stuck in this misery.


when can i get a grip over myself? i really do not know.

{/2:53 PM}

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guess what?? i think i had recovered from the dreadful flu! :) does it signify that the storm's finally over? i doubt so, cos it has only just begun. haha. couldn't sleep well last night, woke up several times. in addition, i had a really really sweet dream. the kind of dream that i can only dream about. but i woke up only to realise that everything's only a dream. reality has to prick me on the foot. i hate it. but life's just like that. whatever happens in your life, you just have to gladly accept it. although it's going to be an uphill task to rewind, i'll still try.


another chance? nah. don't think so.

{/11:18 AM}

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yea. i think im finally recovering. less coughings and less runny nose now. but strangely, i seemed to be feeling worse than before. the biggest irony is that, i have no idea what to do about it. i have thought that this weekend was going to be fun-filled, a weekend to look forward to. well, i was wrong. it's a weekend for me to 'cry' over spilled milk, and to get a freaking hold of myself.


i doubt i'll be able to do all that. no one understands, anyway.









why?

{/3:33 PM}

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i've coughed alot today. i once thought that coughing is one of the first few symptoms of flu, but perhaps, it could be just a bad omen.


everytime i cough, there's a chance that the virus enters a new body, infiltrating its immune system. i hate it when ppl pass the flu virus to me, yet i feel guilty when i, in turn, transmit my disease to other ppl. i've realised many ppl around me are falling sick, and im terribly sorry.. from the bottom of my heart.


i've fallen sick twice in a row. struck down twice in a row. but i'll stand up even stronger.


in the past, i admit i did not have the courage to say this....

i love u.

{/6:28 PM}

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today is a better day, at least, compared to the day before. had only one mishap. okay, it was a mass mishap, as nearly the whole class got chased out during econs tutorial. how nice, just because we dint read the newspaper articles. so we stayed outside the classroom for nearly 40mins. well, it was partly our fault, but excluding us from lesson, perhaps, is a little too much. soon after we were called, our econs tchr started lecturing us about our attitudes. and the worst had yet to come. at the end of the period, i was one of the 8 who were called to stay back in class, forgoing my lunch. and there she goes preaching and lecturing us. questioning us on our contribution to econs, what we have done etc etc. the ULTIMATE thing she said was that, if we did not achieve a D grade for common test one for econs, she WILL NOT welcome us to her class anymore. so it's like, a kick in the butt even before we embark on actual work! totally outrageous. but well, I WILL SHOW HER THAT I'LL GET AT LEAST A D FOR ECONS. damn.


after school, stayed back at the library to do some math while waiting for the rain to stop. was with the guys - yd, edwyn, jy and tat. ziyan, from what i heard went dating. nice one ziyan.. got so frustrated over some parts of the questions that i gave up in the end. the rest, hmmm, they gave up too. the temptation to play bball was a little too hard to handle. so off we go to ball.


and so, the day ended rather smoothly. cant wait for the last wkday to pass - which is tmr.


i guess, it's just me. and it's time to move on.

{/7:19 PM}

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hahah. had an absolutely perfect start to a day at school. first, the bus i took (74) went on a collision course with a vehicle directly in front at macritchie. so me and edwyn were stuck in the bus at the exact same spot for like 10 15 mins, while the driver went out to negotiate with the car driver. well, it's sometimes unavoidable that accidents happen, especially in the peak hour. so yar, i can only blame it on bad luck.


okay, so i reached school barely on time. no one's at the grandstand already. forget about the assembly, redundant stuff. then came the end of assembly. i have to suffer the wrath of unluckiness again. this time i was caught with my shirt untucked, and that wasnt enough! caught without a collarpin too. like wth. i have been consciensciouly putting on the collar pin - except today. and i have to be caught on this very day. how lucky. had my friggin bus pass taken from my very hands.


next, after econs lecture, followed heng da down to the canteen to grab something. called ziyan at the same time, and how thoughtful of them to have gone to kap. heng da had to leave for some ogl stuff leaving me behind. without no other guy to hang arond with. it was so frustrating. not only have i got my bus pass confiscated, i have no other guy to talk to!! arghh. ABSOLUTE UNLUCKINESS!


things have not gone for the better yet. i have attempted THRICE to reach for the tchr at the staff room, but to NO AVAIL! forth time i tried ended up fruitless too. so i decided to just wait outside the staff room. okay, now im lucky. after 15 mins, i saw the tchr. but the tchr was nice, she's friendly and yar. hahah. so hmmm... maybe, it's just a lesson to be learnt. I SHALL PUT ON MY COLLAR PIN FROM NOW ON!


after that, met up with heng da and jiaying. we just chatted till 5 to keep heng da occupied. so fortunately, the day ended well. the days ahead, well.. i simply hope they get better..

{/5:31 PM}

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im sick sick sick of myself. not only am i really sick, as in ill, im so sick of myself.


nvm. just a bad day. bad first day of school as a matter of fact.


oh, and just to add some interesting facts: i have used up half a roll of toilet paper, many many pieces of tissue papers - to blow my ever runny nose. and you know, that strange sensation in your throat when u have a flu. sucks. how many times did i contracted flu this holidays? twice? argh.

{/10:06 PM}

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hello! im like finally back to wake my half-dead blog! and coincidentally, it's new year's day! like wow? a new year means a new start to life. well, i've been fortunate to be promoted to jc2 - considering my laziness in the year which has just passed. so perhaps, it's time to start life afresh and make the best of whatever resources of i have. (that sounded cliched, i know). hopefully, i'll be able to find the spark that will ignite the fire in me. (holy shit. it's getting worse).


i guess that's the result of not blogging as frequently.


sigh


but hey hey. still. it's JANuary 1st. soooooooooo, HAPPY NEW YR!

{/9:39 PM}

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