today was my first official day in interact club. and err, well, im supposed to be in the HELP scheme. hahahha, i think it's not bad, giving tuition to primary school kids. the little boy i was tuitioning just now was only p5, and i helped him with decimals. it wasnt really tt smooth-sailing as i had somehow forgot how to multiply properly without my calculator. i think, perhaps i shd be sent back to primary school =s damn.. tt sucks. but hahahah, i found out how to multiply in the end. so okay, i think i deserve to be in jc1. haha..

i spent like 2 hours there?? tt's quite long, no wonder the boy got restless after about 1 hour. kept talking to me about his mobile phone, and telling me how special his phone number was. guess wat's so special about his number???? well, it starts with the number '8' -_- i was like.. errr... oh wow, tt's so cool! hahahahah.. i guess little boys dun understand sarcasm. si hui, xin lin and kelly were also giving tuition. and at the playgroup section, jialing and yy were happily playing with kids, i think. hahahhaha.. i think they had so much fun playing with the children, arghh.. im not used to giving tuition u know?? hahahha..

and so, at 5, everyone signed off and left.. the rest left for their dinner, while me and jialing went j8 hoping to find sth to eat for pre-dinner snack. it wasnt tt fruitful, and i only managed to get a bread, from BREADtalk. haha. tt's so cool! =) hahahah.. in the end, we spent our time walking around j8 aimlessly and spending a large portion of our time in popular looking at crappy stuffs. admiring barbie dolls, and looking at toys. hahaha..

hmmm, so it was quite an interesting day afterall! =)

to my darling: im super touched after reading your entry, seriously! i just want to say that i know sometimes i get too carried away with feeling sad, and affected your moodat the same time. im just like that, i cant really help it.

but just know that i will continue to love you for a long long time to come...

besides studying, there's only one person in my mind now: YOU.

so it's a sunday. wow, it's been a long time since i last went out on a sunday, i think. hahahha.. and was late. argh, im seldom late, but this time, i estimated my time wrongly, so there was nth i could do the moment i realised im gonna be so so late... sorry.. dint meant to be late. =s

our plan for the day was to watch the island, cos from what jialing said, it looks like a nice movie! in the end got a ticket for the 430 show, that means that we had 2 hours to spend away before the movie starts. went to the orchard library and met sihui, edwyn and kelly there again! hahah, so spent quite some time there before walking around, trying to find somewhere to go. in the end, we still end up at cine, and ate at bk. haha.. sounds interesting. but well, it's not, okay actually it is.

well, the movie was not bad i think, lots of action scenes. clones are just so interesting. somehow, i find resemblance of clones with artificial intelligence. ha. crap. okay la, at least i think my 950 wasnt wasted on a lousy movie..

hmmm, i dunno wat to blog about too.. but erm, i will just like to say: I LOVE YOU!! to my dearest darling... =)

im taken aback by my surprisingly slow pace of reading of harry potter, from yesterday, i've not even read half of the book! considering my knack of reading books fast. alas, to my utmost amazement, harry potter has proven me wrong!

'dun hex me, harry potter. im scared.' =s

hahah.. crap, im going bonkers. and nope, it's not the caffeine now. somehow, i feel that caffeine makes my day better,keeps me awake during tutorials and lectures, making me feel high as though i've taken narcotics drugs. but i love it the way i start blabbling nonsense the moment i drink a cup of coffee or tea. hahahha.. and so, today's a cool day, rain, rain and more rain. i was stunned by the stupid remedial on friday. great, now my fridays are screwed too. to think friday was play day, now it seems like i have to play with maths instead. considering lessons end at 1230, and i have to wait freakin 4 hours for the maths remedial to start. fuck maths. screw maths. hate maths.

well, i felt better today too. amazing! just a little time spent together had rejuvenated my spirits, my soul.. hahhaha..

ps. wait till it's my turn to splash water on u.. =p

ahh, okay, i shall continue reading harry potter...

today was a damn boring day, and i wAS friggin tired. woke up today feeling like i have not slept for a decade. my eyes were swollen and red, so for the whole day, i was having blurred vision. not only that, they just felt so uncomfortable, putting so many drops of eye drop just merely made my eyes less red. wth is wrong with my eyes? oh how i envy ppl who have such beautiful white eyes, instead of my daily bloodshot eyes. im gonna scare the hell out of everyone when one day i come to sch with my eyes fully red. hahahhahahha.. maybe, im borned to be a vampire, u know.. those bloodshot eyes? hahah, the resemblance. i just have to wait for my fangs to grow!

i was half aslp during physics and econs lecture, couldnt figure out what the hell the lecturers were talking about, just couldnt concentrate. some ppl can still concentrate even though they are slpy or tired, i just cant.. dammit, i have a weak body, coupled with an ultra stupid brain. i do no good to the society besides the fact that i use up precious oxygen.

okay, and so, both my bro and sis have finally finished reading harry potter, so it's my turn now! oh yea.... harry potter rocks my socks.

what a wasted wkend. did almost nth, well, the best thing i did was watching the incredibles on dvd. oh yay! how fun. if only i could do more meaningful stuffs during the wkend, i will feel like a more complete person, instead of one who only knows how to laze around, watching tv, using the com.

my parents were preaching to me this morning, saying how even poly student work harder than me. yea right, tt's like 1 out of how many thousand? open ur eyes and ears man, i did work hard for common tests, but not hard enough!! dammit.. all u all know is comparing me with ppl who are better than me. why not compare with urself?? argh.. this sucks..

told u everything sucks.

In life, there are inevitable failures. But when failures often seem too frequent to be true, you know there must be something wrong. For my case, i've met uncountable failures, in sec sch, and now in jc. but still, it's not easy to face failures, failures make us reflect upon our mistakes, rectify them and overcome them. however, there are times whens u try and try, nothing works. that's when u should learn to give up. ha. never give up before putting up a good fight. and so, i'll do my best before i throw in the towel. it sucks when everything u do, u just get a freakin F. F, F and more Fs. it's only when u experience failures can u understand how us, failures, feel. wait till u fail, u'll know our agonies, our frustrations. when we fail, people look down on us. we are nothing but specks of dirt, brush us aside, rid us, and do the world a good deed.

failure is all about losing to other ppl, becoming the outcasts of the society. the society doesnt need to have failures like us to progress, in fact, we hinder the progress. people hate failures, which means, they hate us.

anyway, failing sux. common tests sux. life sux. everything sux.

boring... i wasted my whole day away. oh yay..

today was another unlucky day. damn.. i got 2 abrasions and a bruise yesterday while playing with the chair in the lab. today, after pe, all because of my desperation for water, while dashing to the grandstand i tripped over a step and fell in front of so many ppl. wah lao, clumsy me. i got more abrasions on my arm and right leg. plus, my shoulder joint hurts when stretched. it hurts also when i move my arms like a monkey. dammit. wth is wrong with me recently.. argh...

but anyway, i just felt happier than normal today! =) a nice little hello in the morning is enough to cheer me up! hahahha..

we had a fire drill right after pe, compromising our precious break time. the scorching hot sun baked our backs, i nearly died of thirst, exhaustion and heat stroke. to think the sch worships the sun god.. oh man, why the hell does the sch wants to build a shelter over the amphitheatre. build it over the parade square dammit!! arghh.. and oh yar, got back my physics common test paper today. guess wat.. i barely passed, passed by 0.2 marks. wow, but no complains. at least i passed!! =) so yea, tt made my day, felt very much alive today..

and there's tt public speaking workshop tt's supposed to be held after pw. but after waiting and waiting, the tchr still has not appeared. great. kena pangsehed by a public speaker. go public speak for all u want.. so instead, we had pw discussion....

watched the soccer match after tt, quite boring, but well, everyone's talking anyway.. so it was quite a fruitful day. got some injuries, but it was still a nice day.. hahhaha...

today had a good game of badminton with my fellow classmates whom i always go out with, namely jialing! edwyn! and sihui! oh ahhahahah... edwyn had to be so considerate to book a court tt is not a stone throw away from our homes, rather, he booked one tt's many stone throws away, at woodlands -_- arghh, but nvm, at least it's near jialing's and sihui's homes..

before i even reached, edwyn already complained tt he paid 9 bucks for the cab fare.. oh poor thing, i wouldnt consider taking a cab in the first place even if im late.. i rather save the money for sth else, like having a better meal, or watching more movies.. so by right, edwyn paid 11.25 times more the amount i took to go woodlands. wow.. an amazing feat! ahhaha..

we walked to woodlands cc on foot, lugging our not-so-heavy rackets with us. and to our horror!! holy shit. we had to wait till 1230 before we have a court.. it wasnt even 12 at tt time, so we had to wait a darn long time before we manage to get a court, not only tt, each of us had to fork out 3 bucks. damn. im broke.. so everyone started talking and chatting. wow i sat and listened, just felt lethagic. anyway, when it was finally 1230, we rushed down to get the balls rolling, or shd i say, flying instead. hahahah.. i suck in badminton, my smashes are weak... and the shuttlecock kept getting stuck on the net.. my backhand suck too.. argh, but heck.. edwyn and sihui are all better den me...

and jialing!!! u must run more!! =) hahahhahaha

i played till i nearly died.. damn tired la.. i dint know playing badminton can be so tiring. argh, but i would prefer tennis.. ahhh, after watching the wimbledon finals on ch 5 last nite.. holy.. exhilarating match!

after the badminton session, we went causeway point to have a meal at bk. well, since i only had $2.25 left, i had to borrow 4 bucks from jialing. i dun really like borrowing money though, cos i have to return the money.. if only i had a billion dollars in my bank account. argh, heck, tt will only happen 10 yrs later.. dun worry charities, u all will have a share of my fortune =) and i'll make sure my family benefits, 10 cars in the car park, 5 bungalows fully furnished with furnitures imported from europe. ah, i cant describe them la, just think of the things u dream of and i'll have them in the future =) hahhahaha..

oh and, jialing made me spill chilli sauce on my shirt.. and on another instance, all of a sudden, the whole tray with tomato ketchup and chilli sauce fluttered onto my shirt.. wow.. poor me, is tt an impending warning tt i'll be a billionaire next time. ha. im very sure! =)

wow, 6 hours straight in kbox! hahahha.. im darn tired now.. went to orchard cineleisure's kbox with jialing, edwyn and sihui.. well, it was fun, but im friggin broke now, even owe edwyn's money.. crap.

but it was really fun. singing was fun. laughing was fun. hearing out-of-tune singings was fun. reminding myself of the songs i used to listen in sec sch was fun.

i could vent my frustrations and anger over my common tests by singing and screaming away. so i supposed it's quite a fulfiling day. ahhh.. but if only i had more money, i wouldnt be broke now.. =(