i used to hear stuffs from people saying that birthdays are days where you just grow one year older. nothing special about it. i used to be a believer of that, but now no. with so my of my friends around me who cares, and the many smses they sent to me, i really really feel touched. ah. i have to say, this year's birthday was the best!


well, firstly, i got to thank those people who sent me midnight greetings. people like audrey, jiaying and xinlin. 12am exactly! ahh, i'm so touched. it's always different when people send you the earliest greetings possible, it shows that they do care, and they do make the effort to send the greetings to you at the stroke of midnight. then there are the others too! not to forget, my very good friend kaisiang! haha. thnx buddy. you are really a great friend. also, friends such as sihui, yawen, serene, fedelis, heng da, yaodong, anitha, victor, clarice, and the latest one from my long lost friend, lingyi. hahaha. not to forget, today rcved greetings from jasline!


okay, i hope i dont miss anyone out. thanks you guys, you all made my day such a memorable one :)


so basically, the day was free due to enrichment week, where we coincidentally had completed all 15 hours. had breakfast with heng da and edwyn at causeway point, burger king. was quite a long and rather redundant journey, but ah. nvm. it was okay. then headed to town to meet up with yaodong and co. erm no, before that. went kpool for an hour plus with ed and heng da. woo, today pool was not bad! i think im finding back my form, slowly, but surely! met them at taka for lunch. lunch was rather screwed, cos my order was surprisingly not taken note of =s then got to watch ice age 2. hmmm, there were a couple of funny parts, but i think that's it. dint get to catch ice age 1 anyway. it was rather fun hanging out with them la, but of course, that wasnt the highlight of the day!


the dinner with kaisiang and friends is definitely the one i'm looking forward to. and i really have to thank kaisiang for making it all possible! jasline, victor, yawen, jiaying and sihui all came to celebrate my bday with me! had a nice dinner at nydc suntec. nice chats, and nice to see jasline again! ahh, i hope we dont lose contact ever, cos you're such a nice friend! then there's that song dedication thingy at the suntec fountain of wealth. and guess what, they really did read out the dedication! how sweet of them.. you guys are the best man, and you all rock! then, we had sort of a mini feast at suntec's rooftop (only knew about its existence today). it's quite cool, the lighting was rather romantic, but too bad the whole place was a little wet due to the rain. but it was overall, still nice! xinlin and wenhao joined us at the rooftop. then had a group pic. and that rounds up my bday.


it's activities packed back to back. and as mushy as it may seem, i love all my friends. friends who do care, friends who show concern and friends who are always there for me. it's only with you guys around, will i enjoy my birthday, and make my bday such a memorable one! thanks guys.. ahhh.. i'm finally 18..

{/11:17 PM}

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to whoever:


first things first, i make sure i don't turn up in any outings or whatsoever if i'm not invited. why should i? irritate everyone else around me? or to make others unhappy, or perhaps, for me to be easily offended? but if you think i'm still an invited guest, despite others asking me to join in, then i'm speechless.


and why should you ask me to avoid you? if you're unhappy, stay away from me. i'm happy to be around my friends, and if i happen to have the same bunch of friends as you, then too bad, isn't it? i can't control the friends you have, neither can you control my friends. yes, you have an interesting personality. but it's really, none of my business. anyway, i've never said anything about others hating me, maybe all but one. but that doesn't matter. you lead a life of your own.


life has been good, and i hope it stays that way. period.

{/8:59 PM}

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it's the start of the enrichment week, a week where we are supposedly enriched by the plethora of activites available. signed up for a couple of "relatively more interesting" ones like, visiting the aeromedical centre and knowing more about starbucks business model. and then, there are the not so interesting ones, like history of mtv, elegant universe. i'm not saying they are boring, but going out of school for activities definitely beat stoning in school in some classroom or LT listening to teachers talk right?


today was quite a fulfilling day. at starbucks, TTSH branch (don't ask me why they made the visit to a hospital branch). it was not bad la, at least we get to have a drink of our choice, we paid for it many many weeks ago. plus, got to taste some super bitter but aromatic coffee, coupled with a very butterly and small butter cake. the speech was rather boring, nevertheless, how interesting can the talk be? just listen to it and quit complaining eh. haha. it's enrichment week afterall.


next up was the visit to aeromedical centre. the facility looked totally dilapidated, with the dull looking buildings. to think i actually anticipated a state-of-the-art building with many planes in front =s it wasnt as bad as i thought, as in, the trip itself. lots of informative stuffs learnt, and the human centrifuge was a sight to behold. white, large, totally magnificent. we got a chance to go up to take a look inside the cramped cabin too! though, of course, they dint start up the machine. friggin 9Gs, NINE times the atmospheric pressure man. anyway, most of us were given the chance to either try the vertifuge or the turntable. i thought that the vertifuge was more interesting, so i stepped forward when got the opportunity too. haha. damn cool. it's kinda like a centrifuge, but a much slower version. if i didn't remember wrongly, they spun it at rought 10RPM, but that's enough to cause slight dizziness and nausea. ha. then u get to pitch the nose up or down. interesting eh? the turntable resembles a large old refrigerator that can spin on its axis. someone will go in, and basically, disorientate himself. seeing a couple of them entering and coming out, i can only imagine the fun they had! hehe. dizzy dizzy dizzy..


the day ended at around 6!


argh, got to go school at 8 tomorrow, for the video, elegant universe.


2222222222222222222222222 :)

{/6:44 PM}

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so you say, it's the end of common test. oh yea! and then u start thinking, wtf? there's still common test 2, prelims and finally, the omnipotent A LEVELS. you feel like an hourglass, not hourglass figure, hourglass literally. you are just being turned over and over again. there's just nothing u can do. so we resign to our friggin fate, like how hard it is to lose weight. oh, talking about weight. i'm so happy cos i'm 56kg! :) but then again, i feel rather fat, only managed to do a meagre 6 pullups today. definitely a huge contrast from the 11 i did previously. but anyway, i have lots of time to train up. heh heh, 20 pull ups, yaodong. WATCH IT DUDE. you will owe me a treat.


overall, common test was a fluke. everything just dint come together nicely, studied so hard for chemistry only for me to screw it up. what a waste of my time, shouldn't have studied for it, then perhaps i'll be forced to drop it. anyway, i was thinking, out of the 6 ppl on probation. who will prevail? okay, those who do well now, certainly deserve to retain their 4 subs, but those who don't, i think they should, or rather, we should, just drop it. don't whine after getting back our results saying, "ah, never study during the holidays. so have to drop sub" for godsake man, i dont believe those on probation didn't study for cts, for, A FRIGGIN SUBJECT IS AT STAKE. it's do or DIE. okay, so that means. i've already made up my mind, if i have to drop, no qualms about it. just drop it. i think that will do more good than harm.


enough of those bullshit.


you know something is wrong when u reached home so early. i reached home at a holy time of 145pm. bballed in school today, which was ultimately disastrous. off-form like mad. and that makes me sadd.. =( but you know, there's sth i can look forward to! next thursday man. hehe. nah. enrichment week. hopefully, i'll get to enjoy my thursday next week.


to those ill-informed. I'M TURNING 18. :)

{/1:59 PM}

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"This visage, no mere veneer of vanity, is it vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished, as the once vital voice of the verisimilitude now venerates what they once vilified. However, this valorous visitation of a by-gone vexation, stands vivified, and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin van-guarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance; a vendetta, held as a votive, not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose vis-à-vis an introduction, and so it is my very good honor to meet you and you may call me V."


nah, i'm not that sick to remember all that. but just look at the language man. it's friggin good. the alliteration! woo. i was blown away when i heard all that while watching V for Vendetta. i highly recommend this show to anyone who's interested. though it's a political movie, sedatious in nature. but it shows a man, a tortured soul behind the mask, to overrule the corrupted government. ah. sounds like helluva brave man. okay, nevermind. IT'S A MUST WATCH. see, i was right to say that i should catch the show.


anyway, got to watch it cause the 4 subject papers are finally over, albeit there's still physics spa. nevertheless, it's still a reason for us to chill out from the hectic week. went out with the guys to catch the show at town! oh, and right after we stepped down from the bus, we were mobbed by a couple of guys from mtv (pun intended). supposed to do something funny with bananas, and each of us were given one. in the end, all of us stuffed the bananas into jing tat's mouth. it looks really sick from my angle. bananas people, bananas. =p


went back to school after the movie to play bball. got whacked on my face, again. this time though, my specs flew off, and the supporting rubber broke off. damn. ziyan got pissed off to. what a day.


but argh. there's still physics spa. =(

{/8:03 PM}

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i've been having these strange dreams recently. strange dreams that seemed so real, yet seemingly impossible. my brain's getting rather hyperactive eh? must be the muggings.


argh. mugging just aint gonna give me the straight As. this sucks. i think most people mug for the As and the Bs, while i mug for the Es and Ds. what an irony.


anyway, i've set my mind on catching V for Vendetta. looks like a darn cool movie =)

{/5:38 PM}

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"time and tide waits for no man"


how apt.


i've wasted the past few days of the holidays, thinking i have all the time in my life to study for common tests. i guess it's too late to realise my mistake now. all i've done over the past few days was to tell people around me to relax, time is on our side. stuffs like that. ha. IT'S ALL BULLSHIT. cause i'm so regretting what i said. done nothing much as a matter of fact. well, actually i thought about it for the past few days too.


okay, to re-quote what my past entry had said "3 subbers are losers". may i ask for permission to take back my words. perhaps, it's my perception. then again, i thought, if i know i'm so gonna do badly for common tests, why bother studying so hard for it? the end result is only likely to be me dropping a subject. could be a blessing in disguise too. but hey, what subject to drop? i took a hell lot of time pondering over that very question. econs or chem? i hate chem, and i fare badly for chem. yet many people have said chemistry is important. chemistry will give you wide choices in university. so, my verdict? okay, maybe i should wait till my common tests results are out.


anyway, aint it boring to keep mentioning academic stuffs? ah. there are these few days where i keep having recurring thoughts about certain stuffs. quite interesting actually. it's been so long. heh.


oh, and finally. tuition scheduled for tomorrow and the following day. physics, my love, here i comee. :)

{/11:02 PM}

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why? 'cos my computer's down. it's currently somewhere far away from home, receiving treatment. my songs are all stored in that com! damn. i cant add any new songs to my ipod. damn it. i want it BACCCCCK. argh.


oh in the meantime, check out this hard rock band, korn. oh my god. fucking powerful voices they have. beware though, i think some songs can give you throbbing headaches. heh.

{/5:09 PM}

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for a change, i decided to perhaps, change my taste in tv programmes. yes, i seldom stick my butt on the sofa in front of the goggle box. but hey, it's the holidays. anyway, i was watching a show on national geographic channel just now. and before you say i'm a geek who loves such educational programmes, i've got to tell you i'm not. some programmes touches your heart, not that they relate to me directly, but i can feel for those people. people who died heroically, people who died for mankind.


well. basically, the show was about the columbia space shuttle tragedy. i used to once love the sky, and everything related to it. astrology was like my textbook. though that interest slowly dwindled, i could not help but still look up at the sky sometimes, at night. mesmerized by the few twinkling stars that lace the sky. ah. back to my point. it's rather sad to see how human errors led to lost of 7 innocent lives, 7 people who had dreams of being astronauts, making mankind proud, and making contributions to the society at large. yet, they died. don't belittle a piece of foam. it's exactly because of a brief-case sized foam which stole the lives of 7 astronauts from families, who huddled together at home, awaiting their return. it's a very emotional kind of thing. no, i'm not sobbing. it just sets you thinking.


then, there are people around you doing stupid things. (i wont be coy to admit that i am one of them). childish in fact.they whine about life. how life sucks. they make a fuss out of everything. they believe that everything they do will make the sky collapse on them. HELL NO. there are so many other things in life that we should look forward to. mundane stuffs do little to make your life better.


"oh, i'm so gonna fail my common tests"; "argh, organic chem sucks"; "eh, you suck. cos you've got that stinking attitude".. get a life. all these do not add up to bigger and more worthy things in life. take a good hard look around you, man. treasure those small things. don't regret only after you've lost that special something.

{/12:05 AM}

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by saying organic chemistry, i'm referring to that detestable topic in the subject Chemistry. not chemistry among people. organic chemistry is driving me crazy. been trying to do notes for it since yesterday, and so far, i have successfully managed 11 pieces of A4 paper filled with all the shit u can think of, about org chem. i browsed through the yet completed notes, and nearly fell asleep. but i was quite amazed by my ability to sit down for 4 to 5 hours studying chemistry! amazing. and yes, if u have not known, chemistry is my WORST subject. chemistry turns me off, chemistry has a sedating effect. yet, i was able to survive one sixth of the a day on chemistry! so proud of myself eh. fuck it.


stupid chemistry. stupid common tests. argh. i'll just resign to fate if i have to end up dropping a subject. it's not about luck now. i just want to get it over and done with. perhaps, i'll do better doing just 3 A's. yea. i know, face. 4A's = face. S papers = more face. 3 A's = losers. then, i guess i'll be joining the loser club soon.

{/4:19 PM}

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i've always wanted to say this, but hey, i hate cynics. because they make the earth stop spinning, and everyone starts falling off from ground. the world is definitely better without them. heard that? all cynics, please fuck off.


anyway. gp was disastrous. was like a continuation of promos. nightmare after nightmare. never mind.


organic chem is lussssting for me now..

{/12:13 AM}

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it's amazing. i was bored and the next thing i know, i'm browsing through Friendster. it's always interesting to see how people change every now and then, their profiles, their photos and of course, their testimonials. i find browsing through my friends' photos particularly fun. from pictures alone, you can tell how a person is like. whether he/she's narcissistic, he/she having a good dress sense etc etc. kinda stupid, but yet again, pictures tell a thousand words. i stumbled upon a particular person's profile just now, and she has now gotten on with life, happy, even got a bf. well, yes, i'm a loser, whatever you want to say, but i'm a little jealous. how is it that people can get on with life so easily after a setback? while, I? i have this fucking tall mountain to climb. it's not so only to my social life, academics too. look, i've slacked through my entire j1, screwed up my promos, and now i'm struggling with school work. organic chem, anyone? argh. life's a drag.


oh, and for someone. you know who you are! i was reading the sunday times today and saw this phrase somewhere. talk is cheap, action is fundamental.


DO what you HAVE to do! :)

{/6:35 PM}

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ha, all you samsung phone owners who are constantly flustered by faulty-unresponsive keypads, i'm proud to announce to ALL that i've just sent my phone for repair. IT'S FUCKING AS GOOD AS NEW NOW. muahahahahahah. my e630c, yes, not the D500 or D600 business phones, i know, can slide like so so smoothly now. it feels so lubricated, making me feel so proud of my once rotten phone. i'm gonna treat it with care for the time being. yea, it has the scars of time, but hey, i can sms so fluidly like there's no tomorrow now! no more worries of unresponsive keypads, no more troubles of sliding the phone back.


I'm happy! but argh. have to leave home soon.

{/11:33 AM}

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woke up as per normal, and it's only after a while when i remembered that the posting results for my juniors will be out today! well, was kinda feeling happy for some of my juniors, quite a few of them obtained a respectable 9points (i got 9 points last year). was quite certain they will end up in NJ. alas, i was wrong.


saw jasline on bus 166 today with her friend. and again, she said "ah, sian, everyday see you one". reflecting upon it again, it instantly becomes the epitome of one of many life uncertainties. i smsed her in class today, only to receive the shock news of her being posted to aj. met her after pe today, and her eyes were teary and bloodshot. ahh, it was really saddening.


actually, many things happened today. met new friends and stuff. it's kinda cool. watched the nj-hc match too, it ended 1-1. largely a one sided game, nj, surprisingly was dominating the lousy game.


had dinner at kap after jasline finished her shooting. she did really well! =)


okay, short entry this shall be. just wanna wish her all the best. HOPE TO SEE YOU AT THE BUS STOP NEXT THURSDAY!

{/10:17 PM}

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this shall be a short entry. need to rest, feeling a sick ass now.


yea, release of a levels of results. well, my cousin took his alevels last year (hwa chong graduate). CONGRATULATIONS ANYWAY :) if you are reading that is. heard from my mum that he got 4As, GP A1, and 2 S papers distinction. stupendously good results. from now on, i'm motivated to work harder. was looking at the recruit section of the newspapers today, there's that whole section of scholarships and scholars comments and reflections. maybe i wont have the chance to get a scholarship, but i can still aim for those not-so-prestigious ones right? :) I'M SO GONNA BE MOTIVATED BY THE PROSPECT OF EARNING BIG BUCKS IN THE FUTURE! hehe.


there was interact gm today. nothing much, just that the entire LT was so super stuffy. and we lasted a whole hour in that aircon-less LT. argh.


and finally, THANKS KAISIANG, thanks for your strepsils! =) don't worry, u wont have to bring strepsils the next time u have sore throat. just tell me and i'll deliver them to your class! haha.

{/10:17 PM}

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